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2008-11-06T22:04:00.000-08:00

Hello mellow shallow wallow!

Whoo I'm super high now~
Firstly today's cg was super (Y), it made me reflect so so so much ok!
Thank God for cleo, thank God for jessie's openness, thank God for everyone, thank God for God!
Hm anw,
I'd wanted to take a short nap before waking up to do Qt etc.
Then Sheena the overgrown pisai sent me a text that made me so overwhelmed, so excited, so encouraged, so argh idk, just so WHOOOOOOOOO ^^
Then I tried to go back to sleep and I couldn't so I just abandoned the attempts & here I am!
So excited I just jumped out of bed(:
Can hardly express my happiness properly now, feel like crying man~
What can I say really..

God Is Moving.
Did you catch that?!?!?!

God Is Moving Big Time!

Hahaha I think I haven't felt like that in such a longgggggg time.
I think it's something called,
Euphoria.

2008-11-04T01:31:00.000-08:00

Today was a good day.
Today I slept, Alot.
Today I was supp to go on a budget but failed.
Today food made me a hairpee kid :D
Today smiley made me smile,
Though last night I called her a .......................... Bitch.
Thnks for ething sing for you tmr love you forever (L)

Whoo okay to end this off,

Ah cutesy shitz, enjoy(:

2008-11-03T01:17:00.000-08:00

Stir it up in our hearts Lord,

Hm yknw when crescent didn't get any converts during Freedom svc,
I really couldn't understand why & I just couldn't stop thinking
Was it because we weren't doing our best, didn't pray hard enough? etc.
I don't really know eh, but through that I really realized one thing.
Yknw like how we have our dreams to grow God's kingdom,
It won't be a bad thing but the truth is
Our dreams for God's kingdom will be His dreams, but our dreams may not be in His plans, yet.
And, sometimes we get so caught up in fulfilling these dreams that we block God out,
Blocking Him & His plans out.
So I guess I needa be much more sensitive to God,
letting His dreams be my dreams, and not convincing myself that my dreams would be God's dreams.
Heh idk if I'm making much sense here, but yeah that's what I feel.
Comments are welcomed&appreciated(:

Being desperate but patient. Desperate but patient. Desperate but patient.
Go zuoen^^
14 for crescent, let's go babes.
We need a breakthrough, desperately.

God, let us have, a passion for Your people.

2008-10-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

Halloween!

Heh heh, nothing to do on a friday evening?
Stop stoning at home, scaring yrselves silly with the usual:

This Halloween, get yrselves up for some treats/thrills!
Just bring down yr weird&scary self, that's enough,
And you'll find yrself making friends with the same species!

Merely looking thru yr calander to check if you're free,
Merely pondering whether you should come down for it,
Merely wondering if yr heart is able to take all the fun&excitement...
Is definitely, I assure you, Not Enough!
Come down and join us,

Or even have a taste of Fatal Fame.

Location: Theresa Ville (the condo near tiong bahru)
Time: 630pm (Have yr dinner before coming!)
Date: 31st Oct '08!

(Interested? Contact mememememe!)

2008-10-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

I believe you're alright.
I hope you're alright.
I want you to be alright.

Yesterday I prayed, I prayed&I prayed.
I prayed that I could be the one who'd tear down yr pride.
Maybe it was too harsh,
But I was so desperate hahaha, I couldn't bear having this terible thing standing in the way of
yr relationships w ppl, cos that won't be what God wants!
& I made a decision that if I'm gna make you grow, make you shine,
I'm just gna invest&invest&invest&invest summore.
I hope someday you'll truly truly see, this Love of God(:

But for now, my text still stands hahaha.
I'm rly proud of you^^

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1)Huiwei is k r a z y, she said my parents went batam to buy bata shoes HAHAH.
2)Shitface suckz, she always laugh at me.
3)I dreamt that someone said my eyebrows were very nice & I felt so :D in the dream. But when I woke up, I felt super offended.
4)Needa go running sooooon. Argh, can't stand my laziness. Me suck.
5)Whoo last thing, love you, smiley (forever&today), you make me (: + :D + :O + -.-
Ken lee tulibudibu douchoo~

2008-10-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts;

Fab day today {:
Day in school was productive heh,
But cleo never buy my popiah = forever sad ):
Watched Facing The Giants after school with cleo regine geraldine!
It never fails to touch me every single time I watch it, rly.
After that headed to Junelai's house.
Played mahjong+cards w minyee, elizabeth+summer, bugged June to buy carrotcake for me, watched LaughingBabyEthan again+Ken lee on youtube!
&watched some mahjong DVD, k r a z y >:}
Ohyeah I tell you something really farneez.
I just rmbred Elizabeth teared after watching the cartoon Mulan.
Like, ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Soooooooooooo retarded
And I think those who knows who Elizabeth is will find it funnier laaaaaa :D

(Conquer conquer conquer conquer conquer.... This Team)

Hm anw our hols starts... tmr,
Which means that our hol lessons start tmr!
I just saw my dec hol schedule, it's argh, crazy!
But I must must must must must attend every one of em, go zuoen!! (:
K off for QT, gnight everyone, expect to see me in school tmr!
Expect and you'll receive, hahah! ^^

Oh God, let us be a generation that seeks.

2008-10-21T23:05:00.000-07:00

You think you can't?

I think you can,
Simply because you're God's child and you were made to shine.
Don't give up on this, cos I won't give up on you
& cos God never once, gave up on you.
(Plus, this time round, guess what, time's on yr side)

2008-10-19T11:45:00.000-07:00

The worst friend ever, I am, really.

Nobody should be gng through what you're gng through now.
But what you've got in you never fail to amaze me.
How you keep looking to God, how you never stop praying for healing for her, even till the very end.
How you still kept holding on to this faith even when the teachers condemned you
God will honour you for your faithfulness.

But for now, let me be a good friend to you.
Keep believing, keep holding on, keep staying strong.
I love you, dear syikin (no more shit face :} )

2008-10-14T23:52:00.000-07:00

Matchless in every way;

We often want God to take control,
True, we're not afraid to let Him take the wheel cos we know He always knows the best.
Yet, more often than not, we're afraid to let go

But the truth is, it takes two hands to clap.

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Ah I've been wasting my days away,
So i needa make (rly) good use of the remaining schooldays left.
Growing, building up of momentum, managing finances.. (Hahah cleo!)
They say school's the best place to draw people to God, and I can't agree enough.
Go zuoen, you are made to be more than a conqueror(!!!)

2008-09-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

This is getting c r a z y.
Never knew what you could do to me.

Hahaha I really need to

Breathe.

2008-09-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

1) This is really funny but, If Only You Knew.
2) Sometimes I wish I could be a better friend to you
3) Oh, what I would do to save you.
4) The barrier & yr past
6) "Why you go and kiss my ear?!?!" Hahah, I really miss you(& yr nonsense)

Hoho I really like this picture(:

2008-09-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

I think I don't actually know myself as much as I thought I do.
May not exactly be a bad thing either.
Benefit of the doubt, you call it?
Cos sometimes, it's scary what yr pride or fear could do to you.

Anw, this may very well be my last post here.
Am thinking of moving to lj.

2008-08-30T12:41:00.000-07:00

How cow mow wow bow vow? :{
I'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm so,
Freaking scared.

Do you know you're unlike any other?
(Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors)

Go on, hold on, hold out.
When it's gone, move on with life.

2008-08-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

Maybe,
Escapism may be the best way out,
Sometimes.
Just Maybe.

Ah, Pride is a terrible thing.
When you start thinking of things which you think you ought not to/haven't given it a thought bout, for eons/makes you regretful/guilty bout.
It's time like these, you feel you really do need a reality check.

2008-08-13T18:32:00.000-07:00

Guess my favourite song right now.
(Or rather, the one that is always on repeat)

2008-08-03T21:41:00.000-07:00

But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away.
.

2008-07-20T23:51:00.000-07:00

I really really really thank everyone who made my 15th such a :D one
Thnks for loving me, Hugs.
Words can't describe, but when I say I love you, I really do.
From the very bottom of my rectum.
Ahhhh, Thnk God for all of you <3

Anw I need this week to be good, cos I want Ess to be (Y)! (:
But I'm letting fear take control.
It's holding me back too much.
I'm not doing, working, pushing myself enough.
I know I'm not giving my all for God.
&I will. I will. I will. I will. I will.
Cos I know God will continue to awe me.
He will awe us all.
By what He can do.

2008-07-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

The greatest Love that anyone could ever know;

What position is a slut in, to judge a slug? (Hahaha)
Nat thinks her legs damn long, so damn zai.
No way man, I tell you.
Cheerup Fdg, love you love you <3
Jq says she'll kick shyan for me(:
Sheena is embarrassingly slow hahah!
I shall be daokid#1 to Blubber teo >:)
Celeste is my chem tutor now, she's so funny cos she keeps saying she's lousy
Huiwei is so violent, she'd kill pigeons, if they annoy her.
Lover is so cute, she wrote "I hate you ♥" on my lit poem, Ironical.
ClaraFlabby is so funny, she likes to squeeze me damn tightly & after which, say "I'll give you Hourglass figure" :D
And Superwoman is so crazy, she likes to cover my eyes but never fails to injure me. (Eg poking my nose)
Zanita's really damn blur, I wrote "I ♥ zuoen" on her hand while she was sleeping & she'd no idea.

I've really silly friends arnd me yknw, & they make me smile thnk God for em heh <3

Anw I was reading PDL in class this morn, and I came upon this sentence, which got stuck in my head the whole day. "One problem long-term Christians have is that they forget how hopeless it felt to be without Christ." Initially, it just seemed very normal & in place with everything. But when I read back, and then repeatedly through, it made a whole lot of sense. It's like, looking to God, talking to God, has became such an everyday thing, or rather, a norm for us, that we sometimes can't totally relate to an unbeliever, although we thought we can, & are doing it. So,

What can I do to remind myself of this, & how can I work on this?
(Enlightenments are more than welcome(: )

K i should turn in now, srsly.
Goodnight world.

2008-06-27T01:14:00.000-07:00

You've set my feet upon the Rock.

K so I've decided to lock my tablet up in school.
Hahah, so many things to do, so little time|:
So, I can't afford to be tempted by my (stupid) tablet and waste time.
& Hiatus, maybe?
Till I feel like it.

Anw I'm really so overwhelmed with thousands of mixed emotions now.
For the past week, I was actually getting through my days with alot of doubts and uncertainties.
It's like how I wanna do things for/talk to certain ppl but I'm holding back alot,
And I worry about how ppl would look at me etc.
And like what I've been telling Jq,
There's really so so so much for me to do for God right now,
And I've got no idea where to start.
So these few days I've actually been praying alot for direction, for guidance,
Like how I need God to point me to the right direction and ething.
Then, just a few minutes ago, I chanced upon this xanga,
Cos what I'd wanted to do for that person(But did not), she blogged bout how she need it so much that, it just really struck me so hard.
What's more, that thing she needed, is damn weird.
Yknw what, I really needa sort out my thoughts now.
I can't think/blog/express myself properly.
But one thing that I'm really really sure of, is that
God is working in this.
And yknw upon thinking back, I really feel so silly.
Like how I had let really really insignificant things affect me etc.
God never fails to awe me by His ways,
Seriously.

2008-06-18T22:50:00.000-07:00

You're altogether lovely
Altogether Worthy.

Quality rather than Quantity.
Quality rather than Quantity.
Quality rather than Quantity.
This's really one principle that I've to learn to live by.
And, that's something that I'm still learning.
Cos I think it's really easy to overlook this point while working for yr goal.
Such a small point, but such a significant one.

Alright.
Time to get my focus back, and my priorities right.
Goodnight world, sleep tight.

2008-06-18T00:47:00.000-07:00

You take me higher
You lift my head to open skies

Alright hahah I haven't been here for like eons, that I totally have no idea where to start!
K so just brief overview of what's been happening.
And yeah basically, what I can rmbr today la.

So, OasisCamp really really really was, [as Claralee assured me before the camp], Life-Changing, inspiring, and yeah, truly impacted me greatly,
Made me think and reflect alot on what I've been doing,
Plus what I'm gonna do/needa do etc
And besides that, hahah got crazy, got high with all the wrong people ha!

Floorball & Basketball was good (:
Hahah Bh Issac and Dennis forever teaching me how to shoot hoops hahah damn funny.
So like when one tyco one go in, I can feel their happiness man hahaha!
So yeah you can really see how hopeless I am

Study/Doing work sessions with Cg.
Productive ......... When it comes to eating la.
But work-wise, also not bad okay
And today after almost being roasted, grilled, barbecued by the Big round ball of light and fire,
Headed down to Cathay to meet two pigs :D
Ate at this dunno what place for sushi,
And wha Celeste is damn embarrassing!
Yknw this person came to serve us and she was like,
"Eh you everyday come here, not sick of the food ah"
And Celeste totally exclaimed "Omg she recognizes me hahahaha!"
K anw food was (Y) :D
Had a more productive do work session than on Sun, thank God!
Intended to buy Crispychicken but Huiwei was like super(x infinity) disgusted by the tiko man!
So ended up buying cup noodles and nachos from 7-11,
but the nachos tasted & smelled awful so, :X
Wanted to play foozball but was disappointed, someone was alrd there!

Anw Splash Mania tmr,
Super excited (x infinity)
It's gonna be a blast man(!!!)

Anw a proper update soon,
Cross my heart.

2008-05-28T13:24:00.000-07:00

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger

1) I'm going back to weights alrd, after 38297489 light years(!)
2) Say bye to flabs
3) I need to stop procrastinating and start running everyday
4) I suddenly realize i've got 2 neopets which is damn retarded cos they're of the same species
5) Anyone knows where I can put one of 'em up for adoption/abandon it? (guilt :O)
6) My neopet just said "You're the best master in the world" when I fed him *Euphoria~~*
7) I don't even feed my neopets in the past (there's not a need to cos they won't die though they'll always put "dying") but now I do! :D
8) I think I'm the best master in the world too
9) Secondhand Serenade is really good [:
10) I wish ares would just do its job properly and download my songs :S
11) Wha please be fine on monday Mr/Mrs Weather, I want to go sentosa and get my tan back
12) I m b r o k e

2008-05-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

You'll always be a part of me
(Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby)

I was an angsty kid today (ask lover/superwoman) i just wanted to attend all my lessons but i really hate chem i can't understand it no matter how much i want to i hate it when things like these happen cos it makes me feel stupid and it makes me feel like im just not putting in enough effort so now i'm contemplating whether to even attend my lessons tmr it's like i want to just go so that i won't break the promise i made to myself before the hols but then again there's chem and i guess that's the only thing that's making me consider whether to skip anot and i want to just go and meet jq tmr straight away w/o attending my lessons but i know this won't make her proud of me hahah plus im supp to be doing my weights now cos i haven't been trng for very long and i'm really getting fat and it's really scary and i wanna date superwoman out soon but we're always so busy for each other but i wanna watch the movie that's coming out soon we've both agreed it's made for both of us and it's a must that we catch it tgt then again i don't even know when it's coming out this is really random but i hate the bio lab door it caused me so much pain today sheesh and i wanna go out with zinc soon cos she really makes me smile & i miss going out with her though she always damn action and think she damn zai hahah actually she is la cos she hits the gym and is very tough now so can protect me against bitches plus she topped her class so i think she pretty much topped all the double science classes and i'm really proud of her but again i'm still filled with angst and rage idk why but i'm very determined not to swear/curse cos i know it's gonna be bad for health plus i use the very same mouth to praise my Heavenly Father so i won't do it and i've been holding out for months 'cept for the time when i had to pay for something though i'd been pushed by someone so the food i was holding dropped thus i had to pay for it sigh and i can't do all that i want to for you and i don't really like to see you sad etc so i'd do anything but i know i'm not strong enough mentally and i need to cos i can't fall again

I've no idea why i'm blogging like this but anw,
I'll reply my tags some other day, yeah?
My sister just ate finish the passion fruits and left nothing for me yknw?
But she let me have one of her durian puffs which was really nice
So I'm learning to forgive her.
But I have to learn to forgive myself too shit
Cos I was really exasperated by ething just now and i just told her that x was a bitch,
When she started asking bout her.
Wanted to slap myself for that man.

Aside from today, I'm basically nice and peaceful most of the other days thnks

2008-05-25T23:38:00.000-07:00

You know you got me off the highest guard
Believe me when I say it's hard.

Service was really good yesterday.
Impactful.
After service headed for dinner and I ordered half-boiled eggs + Iced tea
And yknw what!
Suah started saying I very ah bei!
Like, ?!?!?!?!?!?!
Yeah so anw she told me something la, then my immediate reaction was like O_O (!),
K I know my eyes not that big la but you get my drift, yeah?
Then my reaction was super big!
"Huh no I'm not really, I'm not! I'm really not! Please trust me with all your heart with all your soul with all your mind! That's Zuoen 22:37, please spread the word(!)"
So she was like lol lol lol,
"K k I will I will. I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you"

Oh anw I gave Cheryl a new name.
Her middle name's blubber!
Yknw, in terms of the fats under the whale... Uh huh.
And sherlyn says my chinese name is......
损友 -____________-

Yep anw I saw something on the way home and I was like ): ,
Then I was texting Jq halfway when I realised I couldn't.
So I was like praying praying praying on the bus,
And God spoke to me through this verse from Jeremiah (I wasn't even at that!)
which I felt really really encouraged by.

5 "If you have raced with men on foot
and they have worn you out,
how can you compete with horses?
If you stumble in safe country,
how will you manage in the thickets by the Jordan?"

Anw, this would be a very random one, but:
I'm willing to, if it could make you happy.
Cheer up, I'll sing for you hahahahah!
Babygirl #1 forever (!)

2008-05-21T01:03:00.000-07:00

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

Got back results today.
Emotions all running high in the auditorium.
First shot came during emath paper,
Like totally caught off guard.
Thnks alot, zinc zinc zinc (!)
Ha you're one smart ass la srsly,
& thnks so much for yr pack of wooden stick biscuits & yr text heh heh!

Then went over to cleo's side and kajiao, and whined and pouted to each other.
So realised that we both got the same marks for a couple of subjects.
And we started this thing bout "Eh you're as smart as I am/We're equally smart!"
Ha but really really thnk God for her, was srsly a great source of comfort :D

And I think that it's during times like these that God will really allow the goodness of people arnd us, to touch us and yeah, just let known to us.
Cos sometimes, it's true that we take all these for granted.
Like, MsChew (my math tuition teacher),
And my mummy (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), etc
Like I just can't express it here exactly how much gratitude I feel towards 'em,
For being just so encouraging and understanding etc.

Yeah plus I really think I made alot of self-realization just through today,
and all these just strikes me one after another,
Which is good, makes me learn heh.
God always has a way!

And I've got super alot to tell jq,
So can't wait to see her tmrrrrr! :D

2008-05-19T23:57:00.000-07:00

So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now

K, this is such a weird time to be blogging heh heh.
But today was quite an awesome day so yeahhhhh.
Hm Yknw I was texting A in the morning so I said I was bored,
And she asked me to play neopets hahah how cute is she.
But anw I really went to play la, so got hooked now yadahyadah.

Then left for shepherding@Cathay.
Was late for 15mins, Sorry jq (!!)
Eh now she knows what's the cause of it alrd die die die :@
K so I felt that it was quite a fruitful shepherding.
(Haiya die make jq feel impt only..
Yknw she was like, "Wha shepherding with lee, then you then buan, 3 in a row ley, I feel damn impt hahah!")
Okay aside from being able to boost jq's ego,
I really felt that it was a productive one,
Like a back-to-basics kinda feeling.
(Ha my mind still at obs man)
So, good job and thnks jq! :D

Oh then there was this small group of people who approached us,
And said they wanted to do a research/survey/interview (dunno which),
Initially I was quite willing then they say need to record voice,
Hahaha, my reaction was like, automatically "No"
I sound damn bad today man, like cough and everything >:s

Then buan came, had shepherding yadahyadah,
While I did my own notes heh heh,
And sub-consciously eavesdrop on 'em.
Cos it was like I didn't realise, till a certain point of time..

Anw after eating a really light meal,
Which was totally damn unlike us [mainly jq (hahaha!)],
Left for WFL, which I thought was really good heh heh!
Cos Daniel and Xanthe could convey their msgs really well!
Oh and both Joanne's, Lee and Ang were leading worship, so cute!
Anw Daniel was like saying none of us were artistically inclined -____-

K anw on the way home for the First time in 121324354 light years,
I kept awake throughout the whole long bus ride okay!
And alot of thoughts went through my mind, damn random thoughts:

Damn long never talk to x -> text? -> k write letter more interesting -> haiya nothing to write -> okay just talk to her when I see her -> wha die really miss her -> cannot cannot! -> go to waste! -> (matthew 22:37)(!) -> go zuoen!
顽(玩)皮不顽(玩)肉-> (Smile smile to myself) -> peiqi's unfinished rice -> chicken wings -> (smile smile) -> miss obs ):
Wha why Superwoman never reply my text! -> (Got super worried & imaginations running wild) -> If never reply I'm gonna post our scandals on my blog alrd -> (smirk smirk) -> (got worried again) -> Sent to wrong person? -> (Check) -> No, heng ah.
Eh something missing -> Fringe -> (xin tia) -> Please Yo, Please Yo, Please let it please Yo
(Passes Esso, [Synergy]) -> Yay interhouse! -> Okay do my best, do my best -> Must man!

Yeah, so that's about it.
But all the while there was like alot of conversations going inside my head so stupid!
But ha, keeps me insanely sane(:

Gentle reminder to self :
Results tmr,
Stay strong(!)

2008-05-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

I can sing cos You pick me up
'Sing cos You're there.

Obs was the bomb, yo.
I kept craving for greentea while I was there, hahah!
(That was exactly the first thing that touched my lips upon reaching mainland!)
It's like, I'm missing everything bout it now ):
I think it's really something you can't get from, just anywhere.
No I'm not gonna elaborate on what we did every single day, but highlights, yes, ha!

Marco Polo, damn crazy instructor -Sam, trekked like siao, kayaked like siao, Marco Polo, peeing on the beach with rong, comparing undies sizes with nicolette, boxes of oreo(!!!), blisters, Marco Polo, playful chefs(translation!(ha!)), self challenges, endurance, teamwork, faith.

Hahah, this can't speak on anything much.
But yes, pictures, once I get hold of 'em.
That, if I ever do la!

Oh but I really find it amusing, & amazing at how things work, and how people bond!
Like, I used to just know samtan but not like, personally.
But I really got to know her (though she wasn't in my watch),
Because we had our periods on the same day,
So we started whining & complaining to each other hahah!

Then, at a certain point of time, Celeste got her period.
So I was practically providing her with my pads cos I didn't have my period yet.
And when we got back to Camp2,
She started providing me with her pads hahah, cos mine was used up alrd!

And this world is made up of really nice people, thnk God.
Yknw during our sea ex(sex!), due to some circumstances,
Our watch only had a packet of oreo each for lunch!
Then hahah, damn nice people like aj samtan etc just started passing food to me yay.

Then, during sea ex (sex!) again,
There was a super heavy downpour, so merely kayaking back to shore was damn tough.
Almost wanted to die alrd, like fighting against all the tides and thunders and winds.
Then Praise You In This Storm started playing in my head,
And the lyrics seemed to drive through me right down to my rectum:

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"

And everything started to seem easy again.
Hahah, God is good!
He is good, all the time (:

If there was more time, one thing I would definitely do,
Is to give proper affirmation to Sam.
Give him the affirmation he deserves.
He says to affirm those who deserves it, but if there's anyone who haven't been affirmed,
It's him.
He's one in a million, and that's what I really think.

And I srsly think that I've got the best watch and instructor I could ever ask for.
Not that anyone is perfect, but they're good enough for me, maybe too good(:
Thnk God.

2008-05-11T11:25:00.000-07:00

I will lift my eyes in the darkest night
For I know my Saviour lives.

Crezawards on friday was pretty good,
Better than last year(:
Most of all, the company as great.
Got high at the wrong part.
It's like, all around people were getting so restless alrd,
Then we started getting all high.
Nat said I looked like I got possessed -__________-

Service yesterday was awesome too.
God spoke to me through sermon,
And really made me see things in a better light.
After that,
Pastor Jeff talked to us about something,
And I guess it really reminded many of us, of our convictions.
Hahah, then Jq and I were like,
"Okay someday it'll be mummy daddy jq jw....... lele!"
Ha okay I think only jq the sucker will know what I'm talking about.
But really, thnk God man.
If not it would have slipped my mind, of what I should really be setting a goal for.

After svc gave central games a miss, ): or |: (choose one)
Cos I had mothers' day celebration at my grandmama's house.
Damn alot of food heh!

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To think you were the one who asked me to _,
To stay away from everything.
Now you're the one succumbing to all these shit.
I won't give up on you.
So don't try, don't even think about it.

"I know it's hard, it's damn hard for me too but we can't succumb to satan right. We've gotta let God win. As much as I love you"
This time round, let me say it back to you.
A different context of course.
I'll be there for you, these five words I promise you.
(Only if you allow me to, of course)
And these words still count,
"I won't be the one that lets go of you"

2008-05-07T23:53:00.000-07:00

Well, I could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone

Hahah, Geek In The Pink keeps playing in my head.
Keeps playing & playing & playing & playing & playing & playing!
Clara says I'm just like a jukebox, heh heh.

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Hm anw today was (Y)
Last paper, say yay(:
So yep, after paper met ngeow&Buan and went for lunch then to ngeow's house.
Hahah, introduced em to Bugs@orisinal, and I swear Buan owns at it can!
Rapping to Low, singing offtune-ly, bullying each other, pigging out.
Then went over to Ps to meet cg.
Ironman@cathy, football table(heh Ang was kajiao-ing man!), Ben&Jerry's, Homey.
Ha Cheryl kept insisting that her Strawberry Cheesecake flavored was the best! -.-

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No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no

I can't fall any deeper.
Gosh, what am I to do?

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Geek In The Pink is still playing in my head, heh.
Okay goodnight world.

2008-05-07T22:59:00.000-07:00

Shit blogger is super screwed up.
Thus, the change of url.
Plus got damn alot of complications,
So I couldn't inform anyone of this heh heh.
So if you're here, either you're resourceful,
Or I tagged on yr blog,
Or you saw my pm.

K Bye world.

2008-05-04T19:46:00.000-07:00

Having lived so many years in Holland,
And always thinking that it is a They've-got-everything-you-need place
But today was actually the first time I find something missing:
A Bookshop (!!!!!)
Like srsly, hahaha.

Cos I was studying at Bk today when I dropped the one and only pen I had with me,
It's my sis's 0.28 one summore!
And guess what,
I had to walk all the way down to Buona Vista area just to get a pen >:(

So here's out to anyone who's interested in setting up a business in Holland area.
We've got enough of Breko, Starbucks and PartyCity etc.
Please go and open a bookshop(!)
Yr business will boom I promise.

Okay this is such a random post(:

2008-05-04T00:32:00.000-07:00

It's growing old to see us torn by every choice that I have made
(In every instant you were right to write me off and move ahead)

Friday,
I srsly thnk God for
Superwoman Zan Clara(Flabby!) Sucker Buan Floorball
Kept me strong and made my day, really.
Hugs.

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Sigh anw I think Superwoman is right,
Disappointment is hard to fight.
One of the hardest things, really.
Esp when yr hopes were placed so high,
And esp when the battle is within yrself.

But once again,
I find myself holding on to the Rock I cling,
To the One who'd held my tears,
To the One who'd never left my side
To the One who loves me most,
To the One who'll never, ever fail me.
God, You're my Strength.

2008-04-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

How can I ever say enough,
How amazing is Your love.

Have been :D these few days.
Aftermath of studying, or gayness getting to my head?
Hahah no not really,
though anyone can turn gay, just hanging out with clara!
Terrible, really.
Yesterday she called me up for the silliest reason you can ever think of!
And today I forced her to do the "Touch My Body" move which I choreographed.
I think it's alot more sexier than her kiwi dance hehe.
Okay I think we'll touch on the topic of gayness a little later, shall we?

But this aside, I think I've been really :D these few days,
Which is a good thing.
I mean to myself, and those arnd me la.
Hahah, cos i'll tend to sing alot when I'm happy,
So those arnd me would benefit greatly (Hahah!)

I know I screwed up all my papers alrd, for a fact.
I mean those which I've alrd taken.
But despite that, everything has been going rather well, yep.

Oh and hahah, today went down to HC to watch HC vs RJ game,
Tight game, but HC won la.
So on the way home I bought Honeystars and gummies to cheer my sis up heh.
But not like she was sad at all(!)
Okay but whatever, at least it made her happy(:
And Mummy is damn funny & damn cute!
I came back home, and
Me: Oh Jiejie lost her game, 3-1
Mummy: *looks at me with the evil eye* Cos you went right!
Me: No wth!
Mummy: Oh I know, cos you didn't bring yr little cross with you, I found it in yr skirt pocket!
(cos I always put my little cross with the "I ♥ Jesus" in my pocket hahah!)

And above all,
Thank you, Lord,
For making the Impossibles seem possible all over again.
You are my Hope, my Everything.

2008-04-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

To say that I miss you, say that I love you
(Will someone please tell me I'm okay)

Clara and I did up some Post-exam activities list which is made up of damn gay things!
Hahah, it's like,
The first page was filled with "Seoul Garden!", "MushroomPot!", "BotakJones!" etc,
Then the 2nd page had things like "Shed those flabs and gain abs"
Nip says we're damn contradicting heh.
Ah, getting away from all the stress hahah.
Escapade Escapade Escapade(!!!)

And I tell you, ClaraSe(ed)it is c r a z y
One fine day, Nip&I, feeling restless, decided to be Ahwang and run Ahwang-ly.
It's damn tiring, and clara flabby, having an adrenaline rush at the point of time(I suppose)
Went ," Eh zuoen, let's go and refill water. I also wanna run Ahwang!"
And bla, yknw the rest.
Then when we went back to class, she was like,
"Eh, who is Ahwang?"
So I made it a point to show it to her today,
And she was laughing at his hair :B

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Study Cg today was hm.. ~~Fruitful~~Foodful,
Thnks Jq & Bh for the bag of goodies and encouragement!
It was really sweet (:
Cleo ClaraLee and I were like totally pigging out la!
Studied a little of geog and went home at 6ish.
Anw Get well soon Celeste!

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That kiss,
It had meant, I Forgive You.
And for the million and one things I ever left unsaid,
Every thing came down to this,
I'm Sorry.

2008-04-21T23:23:00.000-07:00

There's a reason why I carry on
When I lose the fight

Don't question me,
Cos yknw what you did.
No, I've no reason to be angry with you.
I said I would never be angry with you.
But disappointment, that's another thing.

2008-04-17T22:44:00.000-07:00

And now that You're near,
Everything is different;

Just a quickie since,
I haven't been here for damn long.
So.
School's been so hectic, it's such a turn off :|
I miss miss miss miss miss miss miss trngs, sigh.
Have been [quotes] "getting cosy" with some rather gay people lately, ha

Anw,
Zinc zinc zinc!
I hope whatever you're going through,
It's getting better.
And just in case it happened to slip yr mind, let this remind you,
Im Always Here.

Keep believing, baby
Cos everything happens for a reason
(Though tonight tears fill your eyes)
Don't stop dreaming girl
I'll be right here to lean on
You're gonna make it through

(Grey for you cos Zinc is grey. Almost, at least)

Okay la, actually I blogged cos of zinc(!) only.
Cos I don't show my love to her so I feel bad.
And I needa go and study my bio now damnit ):

My dearest, if only you knew.

2008-04-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

(deleted)

Sigh it hurts so much, it hurts so much, it really hurts so much.
Every single inch of it.
Plainly thinking bout it, or talking bout it(to my sis), could make me tear.
It really really mattered to me, alot.
But, the truth kills.
And asking bout the Whys & Why Nots,
It keeps me sane inside. (Or maybe not)

(So near, yet so far)

Whatever It Takes,
Ha, this is the first time I'm relating it to something entirely different.

Trust. And that's another lesson learnt.

Last thing,
I miss you.
What more can I say?

2008-04-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

Do I ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine?

And it's time to ask yrself, or rather yr heart,
Where had yr desire gone to?
When was the last time you fought a tough but good battle,
And not let yrself down?
It's time We get it all back.

2008-03-29T18:34:00.000-07:00

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you

amanda: Hahahah, no lor I don't bring beyblades alrd(!!) Haiya you, I haven't gone over to yr house ): okay see you soon, love. And my stupid cat, xin tia.
Gabriella: Hello stupid, don't come and look for me only when you want yr food, that's really unappreciative of you. Anw I doubt you even rmbr me, so there. And when I'm gone just carry on. Don't mourn, rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice. Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling. And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain, just smile back. That was for you, Hatechuferlyfez, bye.
(Hahaha, I hope amanda doesn't kill me for the difference in length in reply. Ha cos the difference in length is not a measure of my love. Hahahah, so gay.)
Superwoman: Whalao you original till lost its meaning alrd. Okay don't call me that, yknw what i'll say, hahahahah. But hugs, love you<3
Zann: Yo, don't be disgusting, pevert. hahah. Go ask Eugenia what I would say.
.: Whoa whatwhenwherewhenwhatwherewhatwhen. Goodness damn traumatized. When did you see me(?!) I'm alright, thnks, love.

2008-03-29T00:36:00.000-07:00

Making sure there's nothing showing on the outside
(Something's dying on the inside)

Staying back on a Friday just to complete all the assignments you owe, is disgusting.
So I've decided to start doing all my assignments
And Try not to owe anymore of 'em in the future.
(Anw Asshole(!), I'm really sorry for making you wait for so damn long this afternoon!)
On the other hand,
I guess I'm starting to appreciate the efforts of others.
Or rather, how I'm starting to appreciate the effort of my form teacher.
Ha I think I've got a really good form teacher (:
Except for the fact that she doesn't know things that she should.
Ah, shan't elaborate on that, shall we?

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2nd round, draw's out.
So guess this week will be a damn hectic one.
Fighting hard, It'll all be worth it in the end.
Crescent Softball #1.

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Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaa
My hair's a mess, it looks like grass.
I gonna be a scarecrow soon ): (overly ambitious)
Really will chop it off after season ends.
Was telling Retard bout it during tuition,
And we were saying that actually everyone is dying to cut hair.
So we started picturing the whole team going to cut hair tgt,
Then coming out with the same hairstyle.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
Damn gay please.
We were laughing bout it,
Till Ms Chew came and shut us up.

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Lastly, Shitface please please please be fine.
Tell me what to say, tell me,
To make it all okay.
Just tell me what to say,
To let you know I'll always stay.

Stay strong and hold on.
Saya Cinta Kamu, okay?
(Although you love whatever whatever whatever)

2008-03-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
(And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did)

A Lonely September is,
Crazy.
Or rather, I'm thinking it's crazy cos.
Damnitz

Anw great day today.
Hahaha, Cine after school with shitface
Enough to get away from the long day in school.
Eh 415 okay,
Tuesdays are insane shitz.
And they're making us go through the routine every week :|

On the bus there,
I was trying to compose a song for her in the tune of Tonight,
Whereas she kept disrupting my train of thoughts, singing Over You (!!!)
But I would like to add that I actually unleashed my potential,
And discovered that I had a gift for composing, thnks.

Chambers, pool.
Ha I feel a sense of accomplishment cos I'm a (Y) coach,
(Okay whatever,
My source of comfort comes from self praise, so there.
But enough, is enough. It's disgusting)
And I realised I always have pool partners whenever I feel shit inside
So yeah, all my Wonderwalls, love.
Pictures soon (hopefully), if I get 'em.
And shitface kept wanting to take pictures,
So i just went to do a damn gay/bimbotic (Choose one) pose for one of the pictures ha.
"Nice picture ley" She said -.-

Yeah anw Dinner, with Shitface & her Mummy.
Damn funny please,
Her mummy was telling me bout how she knew Ray was Ray,
The minute she saw her etc etc.

Homed, and i sheltered a lao po po from the rain with my umbrella,
Cos I know Kindness is a Virtue :D
And summore she so small, so cute.
So can't bear to let her walk in the rain.

Anw,
I ♥ Super super super super woman till the end of time1
Cos she "understands how I feel",
Deeply, over my CT (no not common test hahah)
Whalao, xin tia ):

And I miss _, but you'll never know.
And because I wanna talk to you,
But you'll only give me that stupid face,
And idk what to do,
Cos you'll only say I suck whenever I talk to you.
(Ha kindly do not assume, cos it's not who you think it is.)

Last thing, no more panic attacks,
Please.
It's driving me crazy.
11:11, 'sbeen long i hope you see that and think of me tonight

2008-03-22T13:16:00.000-07:00

You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair

Yesterday was the ultimate (!!!!!!!!!!)
Had tuition in the morning,
Was so intense :/
And Retard's actual plan didn't work, so disappointing.

And after that headed for cine with secret,
Cos shitface was (quotes:)"very tired", hahah.

Outside heeren there was this roadshow with music blasting out loud
So we just sat next to the road and sang damn loudly to the songs,
Ended up missing a couple of traffic lights, just to sing along ha
Secret was telling me bout how she was singing Stop & Stare the other day,
And this guy just turned and told her that she sing damn nice.

Chambers, pool.
Damn long since I last touched it, hahah.
We were totally hoarding the table!
And we kept going arnd asking people for exchange of $1 coins,
Cos even the counter don't have alrd hahah!

Lunched, took a bus down to Padang.
Wanted to go down and watched a couple of matches,
But didn't in the end.
So went down to the underpass and did work.
Two words: Wasn't unproductive (Hahahaha!)

Done with our work and stoned and stoned,
at bikers skateboarders & breakdancers.
And Secret attempted to teach me how to sing Stop and Stare,
But I couldn't learn properly cos With You kept playing in my head!
Left for dinner at Marina,
Hahah, our dinner was a really sinful one.
Double Choc, plus Nachos w cheese.
Cos after Double Choc I started demanding something salty.
So after much squabbling, settled on Nachos.
And this was what happened: (got from Secret's blog)

bought our nachos and were spose to reach the underground by 8.
then actually i wanted to sit at the sofa at the movie there.
but there was this super scary prop infront.
a 'dead person' inside the police tape zone covered buy a white cloth.
then got those bloody evidence around.
and a fake arm..
i was so shocked and went
'omg.someone just died.lets just go.go!go!ahhhh.'
zuoen was sensible enough to realise it was just an advertisement for the rule#1 show.
there was a poster behind it lurh!
how retarded can i get.

Srsly man, the props looked damn real,
And I would have freaked out if not for the poster at the back...
Hahah i feel like watching it now, or rather any horror movies.
Mainly cos it comes with a thrill you can't get just anywhere.
Anyone up for the date, ha.

Tried to find our way back from Marina,
Intended to go a shorter way but ended up making a big loop.
And we kept walking and i was damn tired so,
"Eh my leg damn suan alrd la"
"What, you cai dao ling meng?"
"Eh look at this -does exaggerated rolling of eyes"
"I just saw an eyeball on the ground, It could be yrs"
"No it should be yrs, cos you like _"
And we just kept suaning each other hahaha,
but we found our way back also la.

Continued stoning and singing out-of-tunely,
While we eat our nachos,
and Secret dripped cheese all over.
Talked bout what we're gonna learn after our nats,
But there were so many that we couldn't settle on any one of 'em.
So ended up talking till 9ish and decided to head home.

We were so tired that just waiting for the traffic light was torturous ha,
And i had the intention to lie on the road side,
"No one would care, they would just stare"
Best.

Hahaha, thnks alot for the day honey.
You're the ultimate, mwah

Btw,
I saw this on secret's blog, she had to write the essay cos she was late for school

once upon a time,there was a girl named zoey.she was often late.
one night,she was burning the midnight oil trying to finish up her holiday hw.
she only managed to sleep at 4 in the morning.(reminds me of the song suddenly)
she woke up late and decided to snooze.
minutes accumulated and she was late for school.

she was about to reach the school when she heard the school bell rang.
it was too late.the side gate closed in her face and she was asked to use the main back gate.
she was then escorted.

for punishment,she was asked to write an essay.she was about to end her essay when she realised she was short of words.
she then decided to elaborate more on punctuality.

(some random punctuality importance stuff)

she decided never to be late again.

the end:D

Damn retarded please.

Sigh anw -,
I'm not gonna care anymore
You can go and die, bye.

2008-03-19T23:34:00.000-07:00

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself

Jiaqi: I'm fine, yo. Hahaha, cos yr caramel (dunno what but very nice) thing made my day(:
Hahah, nope no pressure. Anw thnks dear, love you alot, too <3 style="font-weight: bold;">
Purpleranger: Hello you're damn retarded! And what, talks outside classes, and let NSL roll her eyes at us, whoa. Ha chair and vice chair, we'll turn the class upside down yo. \m/
Superwoman: Hello thnks for yr "It'll all be worth it" reminder, Bold summore, bestest.
Hahaha, yep still keeping my focus. I missed you today, kept wanting to ask where were you,
then rmbred you didn't come ): Get well soon love. Love you times infinity <3 style="font-weight: bold;">
Smelly Syikin: You! Hahah, stop jinxing, stop going to smelly toilets, sing to me more, love me more. Do all the following if you appreciate me :o Ha okay i'm demanding, but I'll get you through Amath. Soon, babe. Anw redbull provider, (L)(L)(L) Hahah, need it!
Joyce: Hey babe, hahah, some people are just so not worth it. We've got a life, and you can get 13points. Hahaha, whereas she's got no life and only knows how to whine to her boyfriend.

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Shitface & I are crazy!
We're planning to meet at 5+, and have breakfast.
Hahaha, I'm damn excited >:B
Cos early in the morning then will have quite little ppl,
So we'll be able sing at the top of our voices (:
Hahah, cos we always sing damn loudly at BK then people will stare at us.
Shitface is starting to like the songs i like.
Though I'm still having difficulty keeping up with her taste of songs.
Spice Girls ley, tell me how.
(Don't kill me, love.)

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Anw I was ranting to nip and shitface this afternoon bout how _ is damn mean to me,
But like always, at the later part of the day,
A voice in my head would go
"Don't you ever give up on it"
And then I'll forget bout ething, and carry on.
I should be grateful for the little friend in my head, no?
In the meantime, give it a name too.
On the other hand, it's almost driving me insane,
Cos it seemed as thought I can never win a battle against it.

So once again,
I'm listening to the voice in my head.
There are still things and people in life worth living for,
And they are the ones that keeps me sane inside.
It's hard, but I'm keeping up a tough fight.

2008-03-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

And baby, the way you make my world go 'round

Needa get my work done by wed
Needa study hard
Needa listen in class
Needa train hard
Needa be nicer to people (although they're damn mean to me most of the times)
(Namely kwanfeixin & -)
Mustn't sleep in class
Mustn't swear
Mustn't keep having thoughts of skipping lessons
Mustn't keep escaping to toilets
Mustn't keep thinking of dying.
Mustn't give up on trying to persuade mum

& I'm trying, I still am.

Haiya Ares is damn screwed up.
Like I can't get my songs and blah.
But guess it's Karma.
Cos I always like to cancel the uploading of my songs,
when people are downloading 'em halfway through
Then if the uploading still continues, I'll simply block the user.
That's how selfish I can get, goodness.
But what goes around comes around,
Now I can't get my Incubus's songs.
Hahaha okay I just resisted the temptation of canceling the upload,
of Whatever It Takes by Lifehouse.
It's a damn nice song, so hahah just share for this once (:

I can be nice when I want to please, Syikin!
Okay the uploading's completed,
I just did a good deed for the day, thnks.

I don't wanna mention this but,
Stop. screwing. up. my. friend's. life. for. goodness. sake
And you can bring yr parents down and see all the teachers,
And do yr version of "Oh I'm doing badly cos she's distracting me",
Or "the whole class hates me cos of what she's been telling 'em"
They may even believe you, if you're lucky ha

You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe(without me)
(No, actually the last line would have been sufficient for me)

Oh, and back to the time when you had almost screwed us up,
Bless you.

2008-03-13T00:31:00.000-07:00

We're both looking for something
That we've been afraid to find

And it's so funny to think of it;
How you always seem to tell yrself whenever something like this happens,
"That was the final one, I'm never gonna do that again"
You start to lose faith,
You start telling eone who would listen,
About how tired you are, from trying, from ething.
And you keep yr hands off ething for a moment or two.
Then out of the blue,
It finds its way back to you, and you decide to just,
"Give it another shot"
But. something fails you, and it's all back to Square One.
Yet actually, deep inside.
You try, time and again,
Only living with the hope that you'll finally discover a rationale that'd satisfy you.
And you convinced yrself that,
"It'll all be worth it"

But frankly speaking, is it really?

And it's so funny,
To realize actually,
How little, ething means to you.(Yr wish, or mine?)

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But for the first time,
I won't actually say I'm losing faith despite the emptiness.
Contradicting, but yes.
Cos I know those words, they don't mean anything.
Or rather, Won't mean anything, in time to come.
And, it might be something good,
For all we know.

2008-03-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard

I'm having sudden sharp pains in my stomach & heart,
Really terrible :|
I'm really sick of school, sigh.
It's like, I tried, really tried.
But I'm damn tired & drained & shagged now.

Okay intially wanted to skip the whole of tmr,
But I'm not going to, cos of Shitface.
All because of her "Very weird" and her "like that will be damn awkward"
Okay forget it, this is sucha last minute decision.
I'll just do impromptu tmr i guess.
She'd better appreciate me more.
Who'd have thought Shitface would be the one asking me not to skip instead.
Ah, how ironical (:

Ha she told me over the phone just now that she just finished watching StepUp2.

Shitface(brown cos you're shitty), me

Eh so how was it?
Damn nice, must watch okay!
But you like Spice Girls ley, how?
Whalao, but, it's cryable!
Wth -.-

Eh seriously ah, tsk.
Really can't trust yr taste too much.

Anw I think my partner is damn scared of me ley, die.
(Eugenia!!!!!!!)
Maybe I should someday try and go,
"I love 棒棒堂!"
Hahahah, tie 2 ponytails summore, cutesy shitz.
Alright sorry, damn far-fetched.
But yeah, Can't possibly let her live in fear right...

2008-03-10T01:18:00.000-07:00

It's like we're going through the motions
Of the scripted destiny

I miss Valencia (alot alot alot alot alot alot alot), sigh.

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I hate how I always seem to be unable to keep to my promises.
I hate how often I let those I love, down.
I hate how I give up so easily, when I know I haven't been trying hard enough.
I hate how much I want to help, but can't.
I hate how unappreciative I tend to be at times.

And, I hate especially,
(deleted)

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I really needa spend my time wisely this holiday.
So much to do, so little time.
Screw the lessons, tsk.
Hatez skewl >:/

2008-03-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

Cos time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had

's Been long,
And my days have been superly hectic.
On the other hand,
here's a note to self:
I Must (really) stop procrastinating
An impt issue, seriously.

Anw today was pretty much an eventful day.
Trng, followed by SRC.
(Watching games, getting all excited/high,
&looking at ppl like Retard & Rong getting Dramatic)
It's, the Ultimate ♥
Hahah, though you'll always get sunburnt damn badly la.
But, that's beside the point
To sum it all up, Awesome.
&that's the only thing i'm looking forward to, this march hols.

Anw i tend to tear when I'm under stress.
So please, don't get too freaked out, if i tear right in front of you.
Wtf that was what happened on friday.
Almost went hysterical trying to explain to Shitface,
that it wasn't cos of some english shit hahah!
Seemed as though i forgot how to breathe,
So I ended up shouting&shouting bout some shit that didn't made sense,
& I guess that only resulted in ppl arnd me thinking I was mentally unstable.
Haiya I was just stressed over alot of things that day la.
Don't wanna talk bout it alrd, damn shit.

By the way, Janell is funny shitz.
She keeps calling me blue ranger,
Cos during Handball we couldn't think of a decent name for our team,
So we just settled on PowerRangers.
And since then, she's been calling me Blue ranger(!!!)

Frankly speaking, i attempted to reply all my tags just now.
Then halfway through, I decided that I would die.
See, procrastination -> this -> bad -> die.
But i've decided that i'll reply my tags from now on ha.

(I really hate getting blocked nose tsk :| )
Okay bye folks,
Gonna get to bed now.

Out.

2008-03-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

"Baby, I'm too lost in you"

Goodness, Shitface was teaching me how to sing that line,
the whole morning!
Note: It's not even the whole song can. Line okay, line!
She's really particular bout ething la, Just because.

Anw,

27Feb
Happy birthday Shitface!

Today,
Happy birthday Jiaqi!

Okay I'm damn drained right now,
& I feel like shit.

(I'm thinking of bringing my tablet home, hahah)
(Maybe i should)

2008-03-02T22:10:00.000-08:00

I'm torn between Silence and Violent expressions

(deleted)

And this is the final one,
I won't ever care/want to care bout it alrd ):
It's damn shit, everything is.

Thnks for ething on Friday, Superwoman (:
I was so damn relieved when you called.
(Meanwhile, don't jump to conclusions?
It's not who you think it is!)
But still, thnks and I love you, really <3>

2008-02-19T23:24:00.000-08:00

Hi again,
I just helped my mum choose 6 Toto numbers.
If she wins, I can be Cai shen ye (:
&I'll be able to give Shitface (shit) a proper (and grand) birthday celebration.
Right after CTs, mind you :D
Say yay.

Damn, I'm still quite wary of the steamboat restaurants i go to,
After the horrendous one I went to, during Cny.
Basket.

2008-02-19T23:13:00.000-08:00

(Never thought that you could break me apart)
You caught me off guard,
Now I'm running and screaming.

Some times, you just can't break the promises you made to yrself,
No matter how much you want to,
How extremely desperately you want to.
I wish I could, but I Can’t, I Can’t I Can’t I Can’t,
I can’t,
Cos I’ll end up screwing ething up.
Screwing myself up (and us, too)
And you have no idea how much it hurts.

So what, best way: “Avoid la”
But eventually, these things,
They build up so much, they’ll crash down right upon me someday.
I’ll let my feelings in and ething will get screwed up again.
And then, back to square one?
(Well done.)

If it’s real we’ll make it through,
Easy for you to say.

Maybe really, Someday I’ll be able to get over it.
Meanwhile, let me just,
Be there for you, but not be there.
Makes sense? (probably not, good)

Out.

2008-02-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

Don't think I can take it
Wake me when it's over.

Sigh this year's Valentine's, it's damn screwed up I'm sorry.
I didn't get anything for people that I initially wanted to.
Trng on Tues&Wed, & i screwed my time up.
Plus I owe alot of people damn alot of things.

I'm really screwed up nowadays,
& I really really really do miss sitting with Superwoman.
I mean, Wenlin's nice and ething,
But haiya, things are just damn different ):

Goodness I haven't been talking properly to some people nowadays,
I feel damn bad.
Maybe you're right, I'm not trying hard enough to make things work,
And what's more, I might even be afraid to try.
Thnks wolf, love.

But if you find that Even when you talk to me & it seems that,
I don't have the intention of talking to you,
It'll only means that I Don't Like You.
Yeah whatever, Don't screw up my friends' lives.

Alright, let tmr be fine, please.
Goodnight everyone.

2008-02-13T23:15:00.000-08:00

2ooth?

Hahahah, Retard, here it is :D
Ah you'd better adapt fast k!
Heh if not I'll make sure I rmbr yr crawling thing for life,
(and announce it during yr wedding (: )
And yr shuo hua wen! -.-
& you cannot turn jump-and-turn anti-clockwise, you'll fall flat
(Hahaha Actually i also cannot turn anti-clockwise but at least I won't fall flat!)
Plus, you're damn lousy cos we're always trying to synchronize star jumps,
But you can never time properly (I like to blame ething on you(: )
And you always like to laugh at me, (It makes me super sad)
Hahahah,
But nvm I still love you, Charlotte Lai <3
(Keep yr surname if you have to Hahaha, i won't take it away)

2008-02-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread

Untitled is playing,
And i had a sudden urge to call charlotte up and start singing to her :D
Ha i rmbr the time when we were trying to shoot an MV of the song,
On the way to Westmall.
It was damn funny, hahahahahahahaha,
With People acting as though they don't know us >:D

Last thing, Retard's coming back soon!

2008-02-08T23:25:00.000-08:00

Whatever happened to our innocence
And that something that you said about being friends.

Shit damn screwed up damn screwed up damn screwed up
screw up screw up screw up screw up screw up screw up ( :| )

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is a staying kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
(sheesh)

Damn should i even delete it?
It was the only thing i wanted to hold onto.
Okay sheesh, give it a week.

2008-02-06T18:02:00.000-08:00

Sometimes two hearts,
Just can't dance to the same beat

(Someday you'll know)
Will be locking my tablet up in school after the long break,
mainly cos it's been too much of a distraction.
Hopefully this would make me study & study & study & study & study.
Sigh I miss kwanfeixin the Pig, she left without saying goodbye ):

I think the starting of Addicted To Me by click5,
sounds damn disco-ish.
Hahahah, damn funny.
Okay random shitz, goodness.

Sigh i think I'm damn mean to _ nowadays,
I feel damn bad.
Guess I needa get used to forgiving people(:

(Don't say it if you don't mean it ): )

2008-02-02T21:40:00.000-08:00

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet

Cos everytime I don't reply,
I've got a reason for doing so.
& If I seemed to have stopped caring,
It just means, I'm tired.
(Yeah whatever, you can lie to me, &I'll just take it as the truth)

Thnks Sucker, yr words are my everything,
I'm really thankful for yr call yesterday, love <3

I've got a feeling you could be the one,
to bring me through ething.
(When I'm with you, I'll make every second count)
Thnks babe, love you <3

2008-01-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true

Just a quickie,
Then back to studying Geog :|

So, School was rather bad and crappy and full of shitz today,
But Feixin was my Happy Meal for the day (:

Went over to her place after school,
& being her, she was damn mean to me,
cos she kept lying to me bout stupid stuffs.
& i wanted to get back at her, so i did The Grudge sound to her (Note: her weakness!)
Bla, wth I told her bout my Cat food story,
So now 2 people know bout it.
It's damn stupid, so can't bear to let too many people know.
(Spare me the embarrassment!)
Taught me Geog, then studied, talked (&dared each other to eat the strawberry leaf ha)
Dinner @ her place, homed at 8ish.
Cabbed back, & the driver had damn alot of stories to tell of.
Seem to be meeting nice drivers alot nowadays, ha!

But despite all the mean things she did/say,
I'm a grateful person, & I know what it is to show my appreciation, so,
Thnks Babe, You made my day <3

2008-01-29T23:19:00.000-08:00

And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight.

Match today was postponed,
Headed back to school today,
&Had talk in school by Coaches,
Which really set me thinking, and reflecting.

Anw,

This small thing here,
It made my day.
Heh, met it on my way home,
& it was Meowing at the Sausage bun i was eating,
So i ended up giving up the entire sausage to it.
It's so dear, I feel like making it mine :D
(If i was invincible, I'll make you mine tonight (: )
I even promised Amanda I'll come up with a nice name for it.

K gotta go back to studying Chem,
Shit, but sigh ):

(To the one close to my Heart, You're damn mean/bitch to me ): )
(nip(!!!!!))

Hahaha,
Lastly, Happy 18th, Yunheng! :D
(You can watch m18 shows now!)

2008-01-27T18:10:00.000-08:00

HappyTreeFriends makes me happy :D

2008-01-26T23:11:00.000-08:00

Feeling like this could only mean,
I'm sinking.

I just wanna tell you that I know, & It's Okay,
I Don't, and Won't Ever blame you,
Cos i understand how hard ething is, & what happened isn't yr fault, really.
But yeah, tell me when you're ready.
I wish i could tell it straight to you/put yr name down here,
But it's so hard to, cos I'm not even supp to know bout this(?)
Last thing, I'm really sorry i put you through all these shit.
I never knew & i didn't mean to.
I'm sorry.(if that could help make things right)

Whatever i told you/did for you in the past, So,
I can't now, Just because.What's that
I hoped they'd meant something to you, bout
Cos i can't say/do 'em now, yr
& I won't be, in a very long time. promises?

K I'm done with nameless dedications.
Lastly, to those who knows what's going on,
I'm sorry I'm sucha disappointment, sigh.

Out.

2008-01-22T23:52:00.000-08:00

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one.

School today was really shitz, sigh.
I kept falling asleep, though i was really Trying to keep awake.
I even used water from my water bottle to wash my face during Bio,
cos i know I'd miss stuffs if i were to go to the washroom!
Goodness, someone, Help me please.

But thnk God for Fei,
Who came over to my class after school,
&helped me pack my desk, which i was so sick of,
cos it was horribly untidy!
&&&, i gave Maria her wages, (which she was deeply ungrateful)
Forum Toys r'us, Ha!
I scared her with two dolls, and she practically screamed her head off!
Played modified softball, floorball, and skateboarded! (:
Entertained a bored Magician/Promoter,
&we bluffed him that it was Fei's birthday tmr,
Actual plan was to con him into giving us the Magician Kit,
But he gave us a Choc coin instead. (Lucky coin!)

Taka, met up with Amanda & Zoey,
Forced Fei to buy a cutesy bottle,
She didn't want to, cos it'll leak.
&i wanted it cos it was the ultimate!
Lunched @ Yoshi, intention was to do work.
But ended up talking :@ :@ :@

Homed with Amanda, & i kept singing.
Fei says i sing horribly, & i'm so hurt.
I wish i could Bubble Wrap my heart,
in case i fall and break apart (from any further discouragement from fei)

2008-01-19T22:17:00.000-08:00

At times, I can just thnk God for the Awesome-est seating arrangement in class.
My two Wonderful Wonderwalls next to me, & they're the Best i could ever ask for.
(though they always draw/write things on my arm!!),
Janell (toxic) who seats in front and is starting to like(and appreciate?) the songs i sing,
My (embarrassing) Mummy who always calls me stupid, yet is stupid herself >:B
My maid, (Maria) although she always claims that she resign alrd, &she's super bimbotic,
She's damn vulgar (she asked me to "FArK OFF" using her calculator >:/ ),
&she's in love with my chauffeur/gardener/cleaner, Goodness.
& that poohlover, (as janell keeps calling her),
Her laughter is damn funny, but she's Santa & whatever she provides everyday,
It helps me stay awake, so, :D

Trngs & Tuitions,
They're what i really look forward to nowadays.
Unbelievable, but yes, Hahaha.
Lessons, don't even talk bout it.

Tuitions, i really love em now.
Cos of the 2 very stupid ppl who attends it with me,
One who always sends the wrong signs (HA!),
&the other one who keeeeeeeeeps singing her Hero/heroine song.
(oh and also cos of my teacher herself la!)
I'm starting to love trngs too,
Tough, but yes, Good.
My Awesome Teamates, i love em.
And that kwanfeixin, who loves her little Lollipop song,
&who is also damn retarded, do sets with her can die. (of laughter)

Seeing all those people i love, in school.
(those mentioned above),
Sucker Wife Phang Amanda Sugar &, My Dearest,
It makes school so much better, really.

Lastly, the Lord, who has been bringing me through these past few days,
Giving me the strength, sustaining me.
Truly, you're our All in All.
& I Thnk You, Lord.

Ps My Dearest, Please cheer up! -inserts our blog link (pun intended.)

2008-01-16T23:57:00.000-08:00

The broken locks were a warning,
You got inside my head

My Lover said i was crazy this morning.
First i started tearing on the way to school with 'em when i talked to Superwoman,
then after that i couldn't stop laughing,
then in class i started tearing again,
Then i kept singing and singing.
Then during morning assembly i couldn't stop saying stupid things during the talk,
then i would start laughing like siao.
Goodness, but i can remember damn clearly going down the rotunda,
&telling Superwoman&Lover "I don't wanna see anyone" repeatedly
o_o

Lessons were fine, but i think Magata is Damn nice, i like her.
&now, i won't even fall asleep during Emath, that's a good thing.

Anw after school,
waited for Feixin with Sugar&Amanda at their class.
Then we went to our secret place.
K fine, it wasn't really that much of a secret, but still!
Once Sugar&i got off the train, we acted as though we had a flight to rush Ha.
&i taught her how to sing Melodiously :D
But she's damn JDKBCCJB, cos she kept trying to show off her techno thing,
(which she said she spent 1/2 year learning)
& some stupid (supposedly) Taekwando (Red belt green tip(?!)) move.

Had Ajisen, which was totally (Y)
Then decided to go BK to study.
&when we got off the Skytrain,
Sugar and i saw this Mediacorp actor,
but we weren't sure whether it was him, cos he had his back facing us,
so we kept staring.
Then he suddenly turned,
& we didn't know what to do, so we just waved at him, (Goodness!)
& HA, he waved back. Shyly.
Then we were laughing our heads off, cos it was so damn embarrassing(!!!!)

At BK, did some work, read, slept, drew (:
& watching feixin & sugar fight with markers (wth?!)
It's so stupid, yet hilarious ha!
Amanda & i left at 8ish,
& on the way home, she got forced by me to walk the long path Hahah(:
so we decided that we should sing, in case it gets too creepy!

& i couldn't help but text feixin to remind her, not to end up killing each other.
Hahaha, and i ended up forcing her to put me as Speed Dial #1,
in case she suddenly gets scared of walking home alone.
Okay fine, i think Speed Dial #1 is Voice mail, but haiya,
I overrule voice mail.
What the, who the hell uses Voice mail la.

K bye, i wanna sleep alrd.

(When I'm with you, I'll make every second count
cause I miss you, whenever you're not around) i'm sorry

2008-01-15T23:20:00.000-08:00

(deleted)

//edit//
My Dearest,
I thank you for telling me ething tonight.
(Ps i love you, z)
(Don't you ever forget that.)

2008-01-13T20:30:00.000-08:00

I need a little more help, than a little bit.

Had tuition at MsChew's in the morning,
It was superly funny,
Retard was being retarded, &sarcastic.
& we kept nudging each other whenever ThatGirl say something,
& we'll frown at each other.

After tuition trained back with retard,
& i went off to meet Sugar & Feixin at Shenton Way BK to study(:
I brought ething that i could consult feixin on, hahah.
& half the time Sugar & i would be bugging feixin on math!
Gave Sugar a note & she gave me one, ha (:
Feixin is the stupidest person on Earth, cos she refuses to beg me bout something,
plus she took my eraser >:(

But today's still considered quite a good day,
as compared to the rest i had, which was shitz.

More to come, Please, I'll need it.

My dearest,
(This is the last time, I give up this heart of mine)

2008-01-12T23:37:00.000-08:00

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

2008-01-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

You run in the dark through a firefight
&i would explode just to save your life.

Charlotte says i sing different songs everyday,
HAHAHAHAHA.
But i'll only sing for certain ppl.
If you're not one of em, that's too bad for you,
You've missed some Melodious singing(:
(Shit i'm going crazy & idk what i'm typing, so ignore me please)

2008-01-06T09:50:00.000-08:00

If your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel.
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on.
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do.
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it.

2008-01-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

She said, "Don't hide the broken parts that i need to see"

I'm really superly glad i stayed for campfire.
Firstly, it was the surprise birthday thing we did for retard,
and seeing her smile(&tears in her eyes HAHAHAHA),
made it All worth it in the end.
and All, referring to,
monster&i walking so damn fast in order to prevent the cake from melting,
meeting that stingy waitress at Macs >:|
monster getting her hand burnt from the wax. (&more!)
Ha and we got retard the MrBean teddy, (she promised me she'll hug it to sleep!)

Secondly, seeing & hugging & talking to Sugar, though she didn't stay,
Loved it.
I really missed her damn alot okay,
it's been so longgggg.

Thirdly, going crazy with the softballers + siying + Fdg!
rong was crazy as usual,
Fdg & i were having fun with rong's hair accessories!!
Ha we were all trying to be the coolest kids in town,
then Fdg had a makeover from me,
& ended up looking like Ah Niu (:

Last but not least, catching up with dearest strappey,
realizing that i still love her to bitz and pieces,
&really knowing what happened to the conflict,
between her stupid pet donkey(eeyore) who died, and her.
Then she told me something,
which brought back loads of memories,
~~&i just started tearing.~~

Anw ething just made up for the shitz of the day,
but.

Okay shit i needa do MsChew's homework alrd,
having tuition tmr (!!!!!!!)
damn shit damn shit damn shit damn shit damn shit :x

(I'll keep us together, i know you deserve much better)

2008-01-03T21:51:00.000-08:00

Like being in love, she said for the first time.

Maybe someday we'll wake up,

and this will all just be a dream.
imy& ~~i cried~~, kill me.

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

2008-01-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

Sis says:
If yr phone's not receiving any reception,
attach this to yr phone.

2007-12-31T13:39:00.000-08:00

If I go crazy then will you still,
Call me Superman?

I've decided to delete that hateful post.

Forgive and move on,
Forgive and move on,
Forgive and move on.

(practice what you preach.)

08 will be a good year,
cos i'll make it a good one (:
wife's class on same level,
(stupid)phang's class next door,
got Superwoman in my class.
Can't get any better.
&,
(:

If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there holding my hand?

2007-12-28T18:11:00.000-08:00

Last year's wishes,
are this year's apologies.

Stayover at cousin's was :D
Christmas dinner, Speed, Snap Jack, late night Heart-to-heart talks,
watching of korean movies, dramas etc.
(& hearing my cousin talk bout that hot guy at the hosp.)
Ething was like great!
I introduced my cousin to this game,
http://www.addictinggames.com/pinchhitter2.html
& i swear she totally owns at that game okay pfffttt.
whalao damn shit,
i've been playing for so long alrd, & i haven't mastered the technique.
then she went up and kept homerun-ing >:B
Beginner's luck (!!!!!!)
Anw to sum it all up, Awesome (:

okay bye, i'm gonna play pinch hitter now.
Anw i'm so immune to their discouragement,
that i'm no longer affected by it alrd.
Okay fine, it still does ):

2007-12-23T18:47:00.000-08:00

Love actually is all around.

Hello,
You're Special to me in every single way,
if you receive a text from me on Christmas.
Love, & bye.

Out.

2007-12-18T14:05:00.000-08:00

(I kept it safe, did you?)

This year's xmas,
gonna spend it at cousin's.
Hope it'll be good (:

(When i text you, I hope you'll reply,
cos it's been so damn long.)
imy
(i hope i'll find it there someday.)

2007-12-13T23:13:00.000-08:00

Oh tell me what to say, Tell me
To make it all okay.
Just tell me what to say
To let you know I'll always stay.
(A Gingerbread man to those who're special.)
(A plastic heart to the one i love.)

2007-12-13T19:24:00.000-08:00

Dejavu.

I tell you i think i'm damn dumb,
cos i like to read disgusting ppl's blog and be disgusted.
But whatever, i think you're disgusting,
but i still read yr blog.
That's why i think i'm damn dumb,
cos i like to read disgusting ppl's blog and be disgusted.
But whatever, i think you're disgusting,
but i still read yr blog.
That's why i think i'm damn dumb,
cos i like to read disgusting ppl's blog and be disgusted.
But whatever, i think you're disgusting,
but i still read yr blog.

(read the title at the top.)

Haiya i was just bored.
Anw im starting to listen to Lifehouse again,
&i'm starting to like 'em again.

&today marks the last trng of the year,
so it's gym gym gym after all these!
cos will become flabbier after tmr (class bbq!)
Hahah, and Zesa brought Tie Dan back, Thnks!!! :D
&summore today after trng went SeoulGarden to celebrate Rong's bday(:
It was helluva fun.
Retard kept playing with Tadpoles :/
She's a frog (:

Song of the day:
You got the whole world in yr hands.
Hah eone is stuck on that song :D

2007-12-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while

Yay, Zoey made me damn happy today,
cos she went to Ms Chew's with me :D
Hahaha, and Retard might be going tooooo!
Lol, ohmy i got so many students for Ms Chew heh.
Okay but whatever,
at least i've got someone going for tuition with me now (:
and i've got someone to have the wanna puke feeling with me in the bus :|
(Omg Retard i tell you, no loopholes okay!(you get what i mean?))

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

I know, because i tried.

I tried, i know i did.
(You blew it)

2007-12-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

Keep spinning around i know it won't stop.

1st december was a blast!
Trng in the morning.
It was quite okay, but the service road was a killer :x

In the evening, met up again,
and had Barbecue at Zesa's
Hahaha, the pits were very advanced,
so the charcoals we bought weren't used!
And we were all fighting to be the best cook,
but when something turns out to be uncooked,
we'll blame it on Retard.
(Our chicken wings were all rejected, so disappointing okay!)

I was eating my otah,
when the sec ones came with the water bombs.
Then i was so shocked that i threw my otah at Sabrina
(shit sorry!)
Played and chased the coaches until we lost 'em.
so went back to pack and clean up the place,
then up to zesa's house.

Played mahjong,
i was teamed up with DLS again hahaha!
Some of em were playing with zesa's Gigantic pack of cards!
Then when the coaches were leaving,
the water fight began again,
this time round with the involvement of cokes and slippers.
Omg damn havoc.
Sorry coaches, we went overboard ):
(and sorry coach for yr new shirt!)

Back to mahjong again,
&the last round was hilarious,
cos all 3 of us- retard rong and myself,
won that round tgt,
cos all of us wanted the exact same tiles.
if we had played with $$,
zesa would 've became :x

Went back at 10ish,
xinyi's dad fetched both retard and i back (thnks!)

2007-11-28T22:24:00.000-08:00

Can i be your Memory?

Study date with Shit today turned out quite screwed,
cos we just kept talking,
which also = not much work done TSK! >:]
but idk, it's been long since i've been out with her,
so it's good in a way ha.

Lunched @ pizzahut,
where we got quite JKVBFNV,
cos we couldn't get Thin crust for our Lover's Splitzza,
when we thought we could.
But we were too lazy to choose another one,
so we just settled for that.
then we ordered breadsticks+spicy drumlets.
omg i tell you we were damn regretful after that,
cos we both felt that we were becoming damn flabby.
Seriously, my arms and legs are becoming damn flabby :|
Gosh i needa work out soon, tone 'em up!
Self discipline ):

Anw we were back to the library to do our work,
but it got too cold and anw the rain stopped,
so we decided to take a trip to Science centre,
anw it was so damn near!
'Sbeen so long since i went there,
and it's quite a good feeling, Hahaha.

I'm so sorry i'm not even doing anything about it,
you deserve so much more than that.

2007-11-27T23:16:00.000-08:00

Desperate for changes, starving for truth.

Trng today was so short and slack,
cos of the stupid downpour >:(
But did weights, so at least something (Y)
Then trng ended so we were supp to bond (?!)
Rong was so horny!
Actual plan was to go up there and see ppl train and mock at 'em,
cos we ended trng earlier
(who's stupid idea i also dunno!)
oh but Retard&i wanted to bluff lingqi that we were gonna do the "Beep" test,
i think will freak anyone out (except lynette(she can go and die :D))

After ething, Retard wanted to go West Coast Park,
Lynette wanted to go Botanical Garden have picnic,
but guess where we ended up at!
We went over to Retard's to play Mahjong :D
(Learning, in Charlotte's and my case)
Omg, i tell you i damn noob la,
but rongrong and retard just kept laughing at me.
What a way to raise my self esteem :o
then lynette just kept having her own moments of Critical Thinking.
She think for damn damn damn damn long ah i tell you.
Then Charlotte just go arnd and be ppl's consultant Hahahah!
She be mine for once,
then she was damn disappointed in me then she zao alrd.
i only won once okay, they say it's beginners' luck!
then after that i just lose lose lose lose lose lose lose lose lose
SO PATHETIC ):
the fengshui at my seat is damn lan okay (!!!!!)
maybe i can look up the net for Fengshui tips (:
like maybe cannot sit right in front of the door, (which was what i was doing)
and must sit blablabla degrees from the door
(which was what rong was doing(&she kept winning wtf!))

omg my wireless is so distracting!
it keeps blinking,
and it's like, to the rhythm of Hold on (Charlotte!!!)
Like the pauses, and ething it just fits, Hahah.

And i think this "Bathroom Wall" application is so stupid okay.
After i went to take a look at the whole thing,
i just deleted off the whole application.
Yay, anw hahah, Papa just fixed up the screwed Mio Tv,
so my family is watching Curse of the Golden flower now.
(and they're talking bout that woman's boobs hahah!)
Bye, i shall go join 'em now (:

P/s Study Date with Shit tmr :D

2007-11-25T03:00:00.000-08:00

Hello I can't sleep,
Sheesh.

2007-11-23T23:59:00.000-08:00

If loving you with all my heart's a crime,
Then I'm guilty.

Hahaha, someone got me stuck on Blue again.
But it doesn't matter,
cos their songs are really nice(:

Anw this morning was damn hectic,
i thought House Meeting was at 11,
so i was still asleep at 9+
Then i saw FDG's text,
and i saw the miss calls,
and i got the shock of my life (okay not really)

And thnks to Amanda for entertaining me and
getting me through the night Hahaha (morning actually.)
Yr story of the beetles in yr house are...
hm rather interesting.
And Sucker, you too.
Thnks for making me sure of what i wanna do, is right.
Whatever i wanna say, i told you in the text alrd (:
but still love you <3

Anw after house meeting which was so full of funny shit,
FDG and i were craving for Subway,
and wanted to have it for brunch.
I rmbred Raffles City had,
but the thing was,
i didn't know whether to get off at City Hall,
or Raffles Place (Raffles City!! Tsk!)
My sense of direction had been fed to the dogs,
judging that i've gone there so many times during SRC >:|

So, we just took our chances and got off at City Hall,
(seeing that we've missed the Raffles Place stop anw)
In the end we just walked&walked&walked&walked,
Through Citylink, Suntec (so dumb okay!)
Then when we realised that Suntec had Subway,
we were so excited.
But Suntec is so damn confusing okay D:
But we still got there hahah.

And after that we just went to sit in random places in Esplanade,
and talked and drew retarded things with our eyes closed -.-
I can draw very well okay!
(self denial is (Y))

Alright trng tmr, better sleep now.
And i pray for a good night's sleep,
last night was simply horrible ):

2007-11-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are.

I went high during today's trng yo.
all the callings & callings & callings & callings were making me siao >:D
But it was so damn warm,
Really HDCBDCHJB (!!!)
Till now i still feel overheated :|
What's wrong with the world mama.
Yay and i told Rong next time imma gonna go her house for jia chang bian fan(:
so wen ~~shen~~xing :D
Oh and im happy,
cos zesa'a going to Taiwan,
and she's bringing ~~sexy~~tie dan back.

After long hits Ms Peh played her favourite guessing game again ):
stupid apple juice got us into trouble.
TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK D:
And after trng,
they started this S Khan thing.
Whalao so stewpitttttt!
What Mongolian King, go and die! >:(
Sabrina laughed at me until got cramps (Y)(Y)(Y)
&she kept calling me stupid girl
Hello I was so hurt okay):

Yay i wanna go Geylang someday with feixin the Maria,
cos there got alot of (Y) Food!

Lunch-ed at Taka,
then after that a couple of us went to watch Enchanted.
Shit i think that's like that worst movie i've ever watched.
Okay I'm probably exaggerating, but i think it's not worth the $$.
For a comedy it'll be fine, but for a movie on its own,
it'll be a bad one.
Hahah, and Jingyi and her friends were sitting right in front of me!!
Oh met SarahJ and SarahB too.
And retard always make a fool of herself in shops.
She was trying to be funny in MoreThanWords,
and nearly got scolded by one of the Shop Assistants.
The other time in Tanglin right....
Alright, i should stop alrd (HAHAHAH)

Goodness im so addicted to the Msn Wink,
the one with the woman laughing.
The woman has such an irritating laughter!
shit i totally can't stand it,
but still i like the wink omg,
im crazy.

Ohman i feel like going over to Amanda's place suddenly.
The other time i wanted to go over after Leadership camp,
but i was so damn tired!
If i go over i can play with her dogs,
and she can teach me math.
Oh but she's not online now,
so i can't ask her.
and i don't wanna text cos i don't really like to text ppl/reply texts nowdays.
okay forget it i just texted her.

shit i'm pissed with my Knee cos i can't figure out what It's thinking.
and when i reached home,
i just stoned and thought and thought and stoned and thought what happened to Knee.
idk, im really worried.

Goodness,
i almost told _ ething today.
Good thing i didn't lose control.
i know she'll still listen like how she used to,
but it's very weird cos we aren't even close anymore?

Okay bye, i wanna go off alrd (:
Lubz

2007-11-20T23:31:00.001-08:00

I memorized the number
So why can't i make the call?

Yay Msn just died on me ):
hello damn annoying okay.

I miss Wife,
but her phone ain't with her,
and her status is always Be Right Back ):

And i'm afraid of trying again,
cos, I'm afraid of disappointment.
And i said i didn't care cos that's really what i want.
Sucker, There, my reason for ething.

im so so so sorry this is such a short and sucky post.

And hahaha, Retard i promised you i'll reserve the 200th post for you!
-cheekopek emoticon
(just keep crawling, crawling, crawling)

Okay ciao :D

2007-11-12T00:57:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna run away,
Baby, you're the one i need tonight.
I'm absolutely fine with no promises.

I could remember the times i told a lie to that question,
the number of times i avoided yr eyes while i gave a reply,
and how badly it bites at my conscience Everytime.

But it doesn't really matter now.
(i'm gonna delete yr pic off my phone)

Someone help me,
Yr heart beating at 95 times/min even when you aint doing anything,
it's normal, not?
Doc asked Mummy if i was violent -.-
She said this pulse can box people one.
(next Popeye, maybe! :D)
Cmon i'm just active, dude.
Maybe i've got High blood pressure aye
Haiya whatever la,
i'm lazy to check the symptoms for high blood pressure,
maybe someone can try getting on my nerves,
then if i start clutching my heart and pass out,
then Bingo.
Or maybe i've got low blood pressure.
Yeah shit i think i'm talking shit.

Ohmy, i needa pee.
K bye, i'll try taking my pulse again later.
(Maybe yr heart beats faster when yr bladder's full?)

2007-11-09T21:30:00.000-08:00

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever.

Hello, haven't been updating lately.
Yeah i'm aware of that, sheesh.
In fact, haven't been touching my tablet for quite some time.
(Blame it on My Girl :D)

Hm anyway 6 Nov was quite a blast,
cos it was spent with Superwoman,
and we pretty much saved the day,

Oh uh see,
that's kind of a Big deal.

Alright fine,
she saved me from ething,
and i saved her from uh,
her aunt.
Yeah, her aunt.
(inside joke (:)

And Hey girl,
i'm sorry for the hole in yr pocket -quoted from yr lj.
But i like to eat to take my mind off things (!!)
And i'll make it up somehow k,
hahah, i can sew for you! :D
But i just want you to know that you're the Extreme Ultimate! (:

Okay byebye,
i found something online worth reading :D

PS. Sucker, i dreamt of Wolfie last night (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2007-11-05T14:29:00.000-08:00

"I dare you to love me, are you game for it?"
"Game"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

2007-11-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

Went over to Sucker's place again today (:
i love Sucker, (cos she sucks)
&Wolfie's still as cute!
Basically we just told each other ething Heh.
Facebook-ed, Orisinal, Neopets, My Girl,
and ething else that Suckers & Assholes do.
I was trying to seduce Sucker under the blanket Hahah.
She wanted to seduce me too,
but no, she wasn't seductive enough though (:
and while i sat on her hanging-from-ceiling thing,
she read out posts from someone's blog,
I resisted the urge to jump down from the hanging thing,
and break my head just there :|
Want to die want to die want to die want to die
Can't Die.
Dinner with Sucker,
while Wolfie watched on greedily (Hahah)
(Oh but she got her share too :D)
left at 8ish,
and Sucker walked me to the bus stop.
but she was being a downright Sucker,
cos she went to throw tissue down from 21st storey.
EEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, Sucker, you're so Disgusting.

And yep, that pretty much sums up my day.
I still got the wanna die feeling (!!!)

P.s I miss nas ): (come online quick! Don't keep working!)

P.ss Charlotte sucks cos she didn't know what Si MaGuang did.

2007-11-01T13:15:00.000-07:00

Tag Replies (:

Janeen: Yep, will. Thnks, you little thing.
Superwoman: Hello you kuku head, hahah, doubt my love! Of cos there ain't anything more to it, you fatty! Eh, i sorted things out already, but i haven't told you what happened! read what's written on -points to post!
Jiaqi: You pok! hahah i'm kinda alright now. Nope, won't lose faith, you talked sense into me(: Hello, i'm free for almost the whole of next week, except wed, hahaha! *hint!
Joyce: Hahah, where got! Anw, sorry aye, haven't gotten back my cam (:
Sarah: No la, mei you shang xin le. Hahah, actually i finished telling you the story when you were online already, heh. Oh but i appreciated it. Really. (hahah!)
-: Hahah, where got "look so sad, sound so sad"! Anw thnks, appreciated it.
Wife: Hahah, no okay. where got Stan's tune! Haha, sexy womannnnn (???!!!!!) (lmao)
Charlotte: Hello girl, hahah! Haiya the actions where got stupid! it's supp to be the Mv okay, pok pok!
Rongrong: YOYOYO back (:
Lorraine: Hahah, okay okay, will accept (: you kuku, where got people hug legs one! But thnks, hahaha, love you too (:
Monster: <3 back!

2007-10-31T22:38:00.000-07:00

Dear Dear Dear Dear Dearest Grandpapa,
You're in a better place now,
I love you.
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hello you, now i know i can live without you, Bye.
hello you, now i know i can't live without you, Lovelove (:

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shit i miss sucker,
hang out soon babe.
our talky talky talky talky talky!
sigh kuai yao si le (!!!)

shit i miss superwoman too ):
honey you're mine okay!
why you keep going out with _ _,
dont wanna go out with me!
omg my heart, can you feel the pain?
Hahah, okay aye our date, too.
sigh, you arrange k?
and yr phone got problem! >:/
go get it checked dude.
Lubz!

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And this one's for you, the one on my phone's screensaver (Hahah):

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, Girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always.

&i'm so thankful that i've got you <3

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Alright, after a talk with Sucker,
i've decided to take the previous post down,
and take things as they are.
Eh i love the person okay,
so i'll put my pride down Hah.

okay i'm worn out, and dying.
thnks to those who tagged,
i'll reply them soon ((:
Nights.

(say it one last time, wont you?)
(i promise i'll sleep this time round)

2007-10-25T21:44:00.000-07:00

Yoh,

#1 im sorry to those, whose texts i didn't reply,
(no mood, sorry.)

#2 i said that out of exasperation,
(im really really really sorry)

#3 i'll miss G3 alot alot alot alot alot

okay bye bye,
i needa do some soul-searching now (Hahahah)

2007-10-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

Wife, why are you "officially jealous" !
and why you dont wanna reply my texts!
Whalao, you broke my heart!
i tell you she's not talking bout me in her blog already Hahah!
and why you say,
"But if it makes you happy then it's fine."
i tell you not me not me not me not me not me not me alrd!
hello wife, i love you okay!
and you wanna doubt my love?
))))))))))))):
Why you think i'll forget you!
anw i thnked you for today,
right from the bottom of my (broken) heart okay!
did i scare you when i cried suddenly?
hahaha, okay la,
will make it up to you somehow.
But eh!
don't doubt my love already la,
made me so damn guilty!
You fatty fatty fatty fatty fatty fatty fatty fatty fatty!

I LOVE YOU WIFE <3

2007-10-23T23:04:00.000-07:00

I can't believe you were the one
to build me up and tear me down

During times like this, i truly truly am grateful for these people
Charlotte, for the recording (:
Sarah&Joyce, for ething, though you guys had no idea what happened.
Lorraine for the Push pop (though i don't think you'll see this, but still.)
Sucker, for that talk&text. i'm really glad i've got you
(i hope you're well, too. Don't think too much k?)
(i think i'm giving up, seriously.)
Last but not least,
my Super super super super superwoman,
Cos she was the one who got me through today.
thnks, alot.
you were amazing. (not yr paperplanes!)

shit i was doing useless things all day,
to distract myself from those thoughts,
plus my headache was so damn killing me.
sleep sleep sleep sleep and more sleep.
when i reached home,
facebook and did quiz (okay fine not useless)
im starting to have no life, shit.

(did this cos i was damn boredddddd.)
1. grab your cell.

2. do you have a camera phone? if so who's the 3rd picture of?
idk, i deleted all my pics

3.what's your ringtone?
Go for it, hahaha

4. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
Malikka

5. Who's the last person you called?
Hazel

6. Who was your last missed call from?
Superwoman!

7.Who's the 2nd person who comes up under C?
Charlotte

8. Who's your speeddial number 2?
Mummy

9. Who's the 3rd person who comes up under J?
Janell

10. Who was your last received call from?
Superwoman!

11. Who's speed dial number 4?
Superwoman! (Hahaha)

12. What does your banner say?
idk?

13. How many messages are currently in your inbox?
77

14. What is the background?
Fishy

15. Who's speed dial number 1?
Voicemail? i couldn't change it!

16. Who's the 5th message from in your inbox?
Sucker

17. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
Beatrice

18. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
4

19. What service do you have?
M1

20. Name every person you have text messages from inbox:
(: , Zoey, Sucker, Phang, Joyce, Charlotte, Superwoman, Sugar, wife, Fdg.

21. Who's the 5th person under A?
Amelia

22. Who is the 9th person on your missed calls list?
GMZD!

23. What does your 6th text message in your inbox say?
"Hey don't worry too much okay, i don't think _ is serious about anyone.
How can she .........? thats's just weird.. So yeah, takecare. i love you asshole."

24. Who is the first person in your contacts?
Aishah

25. Who is the last name in your Phonebook?
(:

okay, back to facebook.

sometimes i just wish i could cry to you,
(but i know i can't)

2007-10-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

Sheesh, i was feeling damn terrible today.
like, I was hungry but couldn't eat.
and it was damn cold (!!)
&i couldn't go for trng,
cos i couldn't even think properly Hahah.
(though it was self trng but still!)
(i can't let you know, so please, stop asking me bout it cos its killing me.)
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like i'm right beside you
But still no word from you.

So true, i can totally relate to this song.
1) a person who's damn important in my life right now.
2) a person who used to be the one i couldn't live without.

okay byebye,
mummy says i needa rest early.
goodnight world.

2007-10-22T00:19:00.000-07:00

It's getting hard to be around you.

Grandpapa,
please stay strong,
I love you,
we all do, really.
(Superwoman, im grateful for yr prayers.)

(: ,
I couldn't bear to see you like that, did you know?
(The fact that i miss you, did you know?)

2007-10-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

imma back yo!
hm, camp was quite alright,
with a little ups and downs here and there.
but overall (Y).

shit but i couldn't sleep,
partly because i had too much things on my mind ):
idk, but texts from Superwoman have been where i get my strength from lately (:
and her texts are constant reminders for me to stay strong and hold on.

Super super super super superwoman!
And i'm hanging on to the words you say,
You said that i will, I'll be okay.
you're one of the strongest person i've ever known,
and i know things are gonna turn out fine for you, too.
perhaps not exactly what you want,
but definitely, a change for the better.
It doesn't matter if others didn't understand or even know,
but i doubt even if they do know, nothing would have changed.
(talk to you online!)
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart,
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're Not Alone.
:D

Stupid!
I'm glad you're alright now. i was so worried bout you last night okay!
&i'm really really sorry i can't do anything at all, to help you ):
but I'll be there if you needa talk okay!
(just don't molest me can already)
(keep my heart safe k!)
oh one more thing,
don't grow any fatter, you fatty.
hahahaha, ogay just kidding, you Rockstar(HAHAH)
do take care and stay strong, k?
anw, this's for you hahah

2007-10-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

today was sucha bad day! (okay some parts of it)
i was so sleepy the entire day,
i had dizzy spells, and my gastric was totally killing me ):
&both my shoulders were badly sunburnt that i couldnt carry my bag!
&i was there, thinking that ti wouldn't be so bad,
cos the Sun was coming and going,
sheesh but how wrong :|

Math Bridging in the morning, quite alright.
then the rest of the day was spent watching My Girl with superwoman and hui! :D
cleaning equipments after school with team was HAHAHA!
&we decided what to put on our sheds already!
Easily distinguishable but totally misleading (:
Interaction time and bonded with lizards' shyte.
Dirty dirty dirty talks.

Ogay i was supp to upload the photos today,
but!
ytd phang went offline halfway through,
and the synchronizing's so damn slow now.
sigh sigh sigh.
but i think the pics are pretty, baby!

This just came across to me but this's just how i feel,

i guess i learnt it the hard way,
but i think there're 2 sides to ething,
and just merely seeing/hearing one side of it,
you can't assume that ething's just that.
i dunno if this will make any difference,
but i hope you get what i mean, really.
dyou?

i guess i learnt it the hard way,
but i now know that people with different personalities still exists.
two-faced?
no, a little more than that.

Love: im glad you saw through her.
i dont want you to get hurt, just keep that in mind, okay?

And i don't want the world to see me,
Cause i don't think that they'd understand.